Why me…

Only once has Jake asked, “Why me?” Here is what I said. Jake, we all have something we go through that is difficult. Some people have many. We can’t always look at someone and see what they’ve been through. Granted most of us don’t experience a bad, life changing experience when we are 18, but we all have them. It came out of my mouth without me really thinking about it. Ironically,  I’ve never asked, “Why Jake?” People have suggested I’m strong. I have been, I suppose, but mainly I’ve just done what needed to be done. Tonight I went to the Marsh grocery store in the downtown of a big city. I’ve never lived in a big city. There was certainly nothing heroic about me going there, but it was a new experience. It was out of my comfort zone, but I did what I had to do. Jake wants to know if our temporary, downtown, close-to-the-hospital apartment has a hot tub. Jake, I don’t think a hot tub is healthy at this point, but I’ll check it out. That’s what we all do. When life throws stuff at us that we didn’t expect, we either deal or we don’t.  When Jake was critically ill 2 years ago, I said to myself, “Maybe Jake had to get this sick so the doctors could figure out what’s wrong.” We certainly didn’t expect this, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, but we’ve dealt with it. We’ve had a lot of great support. We all have things, more than what anyone might ever know. I have pages. Treat people with kindness. You can’t always see what they are dealing with. Most people wouldn’t dream about sharing their experiences in a public forum. I’m comfortable sharing, I always have been. I’m not trying to save the world, but if someone can relate or feels less alone, it’s worth it.

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